25 Weeks 5 Days

This week Keri celebrated one month in the hospital. I say celebrated because of the blessings the Lord has poured out over the last month. First and foremost is that every day there sees Lily become more ready to live outside of the womb. But there are so many more blessings that have been revealed over these weeks. I am sure that I don't have a firm grasp on God's intent for us during this time but it has been affirming to experience Him throughout this time. I am becoming more comfortable with simply walking with God. I have told several people that I don't know what story is being written for us. Whether we will have a thriving healthy baby or one that we have to say goodbye to for a while. Or maybe somewhere in between, but whatever the destination of this journey God has challenged me, more than any other time in my life, to just walk with Him. In reflecting on this season of our lives the story of Abraham and Isaac has kept coming to mind. I don't know what is going to happen with Lily, but I am being asked to come to contentment with the idea that I may have to say goodbye to her. What must have, what he thought were his final hours with his son, Abraham felt like as a father saying goodbye. Did he dare to hope that God would stay his hand? Did he consider fleeing? As the endless arguments tumbled around in his head as to why not to do it there was one thing he must have kept coming back to, "I love and trust God." That simple statement has to carry the day. In the good times and the hardest of times I am finding strength and affirmation in that I really do love and trust God. And of course we know how that famous story ends with God providing a way out of an unwinnable moment. Abraham leaves that place with a name, "The Lord Will Provide." Not always what I expect or want Him to but the Lord will definitely provide. Blessings to you and please keep praying, it works.