Knitted

I learned to knit yesterday. Lisa, A volunteer came by and taught me. If you're a seasoned knitter, or are just a novice, you know it can be very difficult to get started and master. As I sat there watching her teach me how to do this, I looked on in complete perplexity. Then, she handed me the needles, and said, "ok, now you try." I could feel my blood pressure rising. I felt so awkward. I took both the needles in my hands and listened very carefully as she told me what to do one step at a time. At first, I approached each move with caution, not knowing what I was trying to accomplish. By the time I finished my first row, I still couldn't make out what it was I was trying to create.

Life is a lot like knitting. Often times things that happen to us don't make any sense at all. One moment you think you have it all together and then literally, all the sudden you've lost your place. I ask God daily, "What are you doing? Why am I here? This is such a helpless situation! A verse that automatically springs to mind is Psalm 139: 13, "For you created my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother's womb, I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful I know that full well" I can't help but think that David had to be intentional here in using the word "knit." Knitting is very complex, easy to mess up, yet the mistakes can be fixed. As I was sitting there trying to get everything right in my brain, I watched the pattern slowly start to take shape. I could begin to see the scarf that was forming out of this mishmash of yarn.

Then, I inevitably think of Lillian. I think of God knitting Lillian's life together from the beginning, with all its mysteries and perplexities. And she is a deep deep mystery! I think of the first day I found out I was pregnant, to now and I slowly, very slowly begin to see and slightly accept what God is doing with her life. Perhaps this journey isn't even about me or Lillian. And while the human side of me so desperately wants to hold on to her, I trust that Lillian is already stirring the hearts of friends, family and strangers. I can't help believe that although she hasn't even been "born" yet that she is making a tremendous impact on the lives of others, mine in particular.

God is not a novice knitter. He is a master. He knows what he is doing. My job is to be faithful.

Lovingly,
Keri