Jordan Baby Update

But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

August 17, 2010

Our Loving Family and Dearest Friends,

Most of you know by now that our status has changed with my pregnancy. Saturday night, as David and I were enjoying a late night dinner out, my water broke. We quickly paid the bill and went for the hospital. After a stressful couple of hours, we learned that indeed my membranes had ruptured. The doctor’s anticipated that I would deliver Lillian that night, but thankfully my contractions subsided. I am currently in the hospital in an ante-partum unit of the maternity ward. This is where women with high-risk pregnancies who are on bed rest reside until they deliver. Lillian appears to have enough amniotic fluid around her right now, and is not struggling. Obviously, I am at an even higher risk for infection and pre-term labor, etc. We are a day at time here, with competent perinatal specialist advising us, and caring nurses at our beck and call.

As you can expect, this turn of events is emotionally exhausting and just plain disappointing, especially since my condition appeared to be on the “up and up.” I know that God is still faithful. I know that it is not as if He has “dropped the ball”; God knew this was going to happen and for His purposes has allowed it. Don’t be deceived that the optimism I express to you in these updates is not always how I feel day to day, moment to moment. I go through bouts of hopefulness, holding on to her, and then I feel myself letting go of her. I was asking my mom today, why would God even allow me to become pregnant if he wasn’t going to have some special purpose for Lillian’s life? Then she reminded me, that Lillian was created for eternity, as we all are, but often forget. Heaven really is Lillian’s home, but we hold on so desperately to this life like it’s all we have.

We are calling on God everyday for wisdom and guidance as we sift through doctors differing opinions and advice. Will you please take time to pray for any of the following?

-That I would not go into labor or get an infection

-That I would make it to a least 24 weeks gestation

-That we would be strengthened emotionally and physically everyday

-That my dear husband would continue to have strength to support his family

-For sweet Avery and Reese, that God would prepare their little hearts for whatever is to come

-That we would be open to how God wants us to minister to the people here who are taking care of us

Again, I cannot express to you what your prayers mean to us. And moreover, we have no idea of how your faithfulness in supporting our family is bringing glory to Jesus! Thank you! Thank you for everything: your phone calls, voice mails, emails, text-messages, hospital visits, special thoughts of care and concern, and notes of encouragement.

My devotional for today read, Trust God enough to yield to His design and Purposes. Remember that nothing can separate us from God’s loving Presence. We are His.

Holding on,

Keri, David, Avery, Reese and Little Lil…