Slow Down

"I think we should end the relationship."
Was the phrase I heard two days later at an elders meeting, which is one of the nice ways of saying, "you're fired."
At least I got to turn the tables on Keri a little bit because when I told her that night her response was, "are you joking?"
That phrase seems to be popping up a lot and I assure you this won't be the last mention. I had never been fired before. I don't think I have ever felt more beat down in my entire life. There is something within the soul of a man that produces and innate need to provide. Right or wrong this was a wound that would not easily heal. I felt like I had done something horribly wrong and had just gotten caught. Nausea settled in and I was at a complete loss of how to continue to be a man.
It is times like this when we naturally turn to God for help. Why is that? What makes it so easy to ask God for help in desperate times? Maybe that is it, we don't realized that all times are desperate times. This is part of the lesson that God has been teaching me. I keep waiting for life to "slow" down and become normal. It never does. I constantly need God and I am learning to need Him with the little things. You will be amazed at what God did next.